Why a PERFECTLY BROKEN HEART is always better than HAPPILY EVER AFTER
BY SHARON CRAMER
Hello. My name is Sharon. I am an author, and I get love-hate mail. Itâ€™s okay. I deserve it. These people have something in common with me; we share something. We have perfectly broken hearts, even if just for the moment. And so they send the mail, and I love them for it.
Be careful now, for I am not speaking of the slighted, sophomoric love of yesteryears or the one who got away. It is not a photo crush or midsummerâ€™s falling in lust. Noâ€”what I am talking about is a love much different from any of these. It is very rare, something most of us never catch a glimpse of.
It is the oneâ€”a love of such tragic perfection that its life on this earth was never meant to beâ€”and then it is lost. It is like a beauty you cannot look upon, and it will draw you into something so magnificently heartbreaking that you cannot break free of it until it crushes you. It is like emotional heroinâ€¦preciousâ€”like a last breath.
A perfectly broken heart will draw tears from your eyes even when you believe your soul has run dry. It will make you believe a single candle flame to be the most beautiful thing youâ€™ve ever seen, allow you to hear the voice of God in a song, and persuade you to step from a cliff. It is a masterpiece.
â€œHow does it happen?â€ you might ask, â€œâ€¦a perfectly broken heart?â€
If a human heart is fractured in just such a wayâ€”torn so that the hole cannot be repairedâ€”sorrow, regret, and despair can rush in unchecked. Only one who has held flawless love can suffer such a thing. It is immortal, and it can rip sanity away in a flash. To catch sight of it in another is breathtaking.
Someone very dear to me once told me that ninety-seven percent of the things you worry about never happen and the other three percent you never see coming. This is the way of a perfectly broken heart; it is part of the three percent. This is how it happens, and if it happens to you, you will never see it coming, butâ€¦it will change you forever.
So, should you search for a perfectly broken heart? On a daily basis or even ever? Of course not. It is not reasonable to do such a thing, and you would be cruel to wish this upon yourself or another. It is much better to stay within the safe confines of average relationships and sheltered lives. To seek it is riskyâ€¦
But waitâ€¦there is another way. I know because I have done it. Step between the pages of a book and search for it. Itâ€™s not always there, but be patient with your journey. When you find it, you will recognize it for it will sweep you away into a dark river of perfect emotion. Your heart will acheâ€”for a bitâ€”and you may cry, rant, throw the book across the room from the fireside safety of your overstuffed chair.
Never mind, though. It will be exquisite, and you will love-hate the one who wrote the words. Then you can send them a letter, and they will love you for it.
Sharon Cramer is an aspiring time-traveler, overlord(ess), alien princess, and master painter of Halloween faces. In the meantime, she writes from a dank, dark cave, somewhere in Washington State. She’s just released the first in an epic Sci-Fi fantasy series called THE CERULEAN STAR, and has a breakthrough novel, beloved by an amazingly loyal following, called THE EXECUTION. Movie release Fall 2015!
When not painting monsters and planning historical ruin and perfectly crushed hearts, Sharon can be found on horseback, running through the woods of Eastern Washington. Driven by sleeplessness and a seemingly endless draw to the keyboard (and the more than occasional extra strong coffee) she is inspired by unorthodox friends and extreme weather. Mother to three sons, a nerd horse, a bad cat, and eleven fish (who all have names) she is married to a man who surely has won the Nobel Prize for Extreme Tolerance.